Stop the Bleeding

We’ve established the why and some of the attitudes and beliefs that I’ve held over the past couple years or so in order to make actual progress. Let’s call those the first 2 steps of my financial aid repayment journey. I just pulled up my 1098-E forms for 2014 taxes, and I paid nearly $6,200 in interest last year (almost $11,500 in 2013). According to Mint, I paid just over $27,000 towards loans in 2014. Boom. Let’s get to some of things that I have done to make that sort of insane progress.

Tax tip: You cannot take a student loan interest deduction if your modified adjusted gross income (MAGI) is $75,000 or more ($155,000 or more if you file a joint return). More info at IRS.

Assess the damage. Step 3. Money in. Money out. Simple, right? I felt no control over money. I didn’t think I was spending that much money outside of my monthly expenses, but at the same time, I did not have a good idea of where all my money was going at the time. I was making good money but still felt like I was living paycheck to paycheck. Mint.com has been my savior. For those of you who aren’t familiar, it is a website that you can sync with all your financial accounts (e.g. checking, savings, 401(k), credit cards). Based on the types of transactions in those accounts, Mint will categorize them. You can customize categories, set goals, and my favorite feature is that you can setup text messages and other types of alerts when you get close to your budget for the month. It recognizes patterns of spending too, so I have it text me for unusual spending, which is a great safeguard for theft.

After I set up my Mint account, I quickly discovered where I was financially bleeding the most. Food! I love food, but I had no idea how much I was spending on eating out. I lived alone in a 2 bedroom apartment at the time and cooking for one is kind of a pain, so going out to eat was both convenient and a social event for me. We’re not just talking about an extra $50 each month going to food, we are talking hundreds of dollars going to eating out every month. Insanity. Working in downtown Minneapolis, I was grabbing lunch every single day and most nights was eating out. I also realized how much I was spending on little things here and there online that I didn’t really need.

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(from memegenerator.net)

Another moment of anger. I felt like a victim again to my own habits. I heard a powerful phrase this week, which is “patterns are our prison.” It’s true. Behavior is a bitch. Let’s say you could cut back $100 per month on eating out. That’s $1,200 extra to put towards anything. That’s an awesome vacation, a new television, some bling bling for your honey, or of course, extra each month to pay off some debt.

While I have made progress on this one category, I still have weeks here and there where I am terrible. I slipped and fell back into bad habits for a while and just over a month ago, I started focusing on this category again. I created the following rules for myself to guide my decisions and behavior.

  1. Eat breakfast at home.
  2. During the work week, I am allowed to eat out for one lunch per week.
  3. I can go out for dinner up to 2 nights per week, and if it’s with my fiancée, we try to use gift cards that we received over the holidays or coupons.
  4. Have only one drink at happy hour.

Rules have helped me. Since I have re-committed to this aspect of my financial wellness, I have saved a lot of money to put towards school, and I lost 7 pounds. If you focus on one goal, you might find ripple effects in other areas of your life. I’ve also coined January as Introvert January. Winter sucks in Minnesota, so I’m hibernating and saving a bunch of money. Food is just one category I changed my spending in and I’ll talk about other categories (some are very embarrassing) in my next post.

The Victim Mentality

Last post, I talked a lot about why it is important for me to quickly pay off student loans. Again, the ‘why’ is what should drive and motivate you.

For a while, I felt a lot of resentment towards my parents about how much student debt I had. For some reason I thought they should have helped me pay for school. I was very jealous of my friends who did not have any school debt (and still am). I was angry at my universities for how much they charged. I was angry at the decisions I made to study abroad on school loans and go on another international trip in grad school on school loans. I was angry I didn’t budget better in college. I was overwhelmed at the thought of what my paycheck-to-paycheck life was going to be for the next 20 years. Yep. Pissed off and disappointed in myself. I didn’t feel like I was in control at all.

The last time I felt like this was in high school. Early in high school, I had no plans to go to college. My parents divorced at the beginning of my freshman year. I decided to stay with my mom who battles bipolar disorder. At school, many of my friends probably viewed me as the happiest kid walking the halls with my big smile and high energy when it was quite the opposite at home. I could probably write a novel about my childhood but I’ll save that project for later on. I had a guidance counselor at school that saw me come in and out of her office frequently with tears in my eyes in between football/baseball practices, work outs, classes, and my job at a fast food place in town. Frustration about the life I had at home and the sense of resentment I had towards my family. I was jealous of my friends who had parents that were present and active in their lives. I was an angry adopted teenager who felt like he was the victim of some terrible crime. I was overwhelmed by the balancing act of school, sports, work, and life at home.

My school counselor saw something in me that no one had ever vocalized in such a beautiful way. She said, “Eric, you are going to get through this and go to college away from here, and you are going to do what you want with your life.” She helped me fill out college applications and registered me for advanced placement courses my junior year and kept me focused on getting the hell out of Madison, WI.

Fast forward to 2013 and I ran into my guidance counselor back home, and I told her I had a master’s degree and worked at a Fortune 50 company. Tears. Hugs. It was a powerful moment of accomplishment and lesson of gratitude. I’ll have to write more about that later on.

Resentment. Jealousy. Anger. It was happening again but now it was financially driven and had come full circle from my high school hopes to go off to college to escape my life at home. I have been there before and I have won. I could not let the victim mentality win again.

It is easy for us to fall victim to the barriers that lie ahead. The barriers that are between us and our goals. For me, it has been a change of attitude. While the sky seems to be falling, I realize that I still have two feet on the ground. I’m still breathing, and I have the resources to overcome these obstacles. I am in control.

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(from troll.me)

Now that I’ve spent a few posts talking about my vision for being debt free and the attitude shift I’ve gained, I’ll finally talk about how I’ve been making it happen…in the next post.